More About The Show
This show is about the power of being a woman and the power of truth; it's about women's voices and women's choices, sexual abuse, healing and survival; it's about loss of self, loss of child, loss of mother, loss of life, finding friendship, divorce, chick power, determination, courage and change; it's about taking one baby step at a time so that you can say, “Hey, you! Yeah, YOU! I have arrived!; it’s about finding your inner warrior and being forced to face the unthinkable and when you do, you’re new, you’re changed, and you can’t go back; it’s about finding “HOME” and standing tall; it's about acceptance and it’s about…grrrr…finally, once and for all, accepting who you are; it's about telling truths, telling your truth! It's about HOPE.
This is a piece about women and survival.
This is about the indomitable spirit of us all.
I love this quote by Edward Albee. I have circled back to this quote again and again as I have moved through this process of writing and producing this theatrical piece. The quote relates not only to my WORK and the PROCESS of creating it, but related to the CONTENT of the show as well. The quote inspired me and provided a platform for me to discuss the multiple iterations of the piece. It’s become a guiding mantra about how going so far OVER THERE was necessary to get HERE.
What I’ve learned throughout my life and in this process is that YOU MUST go "through it" to know how to get to the place and space you want to be, deserve to be. Sometimes life just “takes us.” Sometimes we end up standing in a very different place than we ever imagined or intended. Sometimes we get lucky and things work out. Sometimes they don’t. Sometimes just a spark of a thought or subtle action can take us to spaces and places we never thought possible. And sometimes the WORST of times points us toward what becomes the BEST of times.
My big obstacles have been FEAR & SHAME. Where does that come from and how is it that FEAR & SHAME shape our choices and ultimately our lives? How is it that we set our sights on X and then something or someone causes us to go way the hell over there…AWAY FROM OUR DREAMS and AWAY FROM WHO WE ARE? Getting at the roots of fear and shame (and this show does just that) allows us to identify or recognize who or what it was that quelled the voice within that said, “Yes, you can!" and kick that demon to the curb.
Back story: The Apartment Story
This play has gone through many iterations, each version and workshopping getting me closer to the DNA, to the ROOTS of this story. So, you won’t be surprised to learn that the story-line of the show has shifted as has it's title. It’s gone from being a piece about my life in NYC to a piece that incorporates the stories of ‘f’d” up families and people and their f’d up issues (come on, we all know about that)!. These stories are not the stories you’d discuss at the Thanksgiving dinner table, in fact, these are the stories, secrets, and lies most people take to their graves. But you know how we all are, right? People imagine the worst if the truth is spoken, but we learn that if truths are not told the worst is realized.
So, the genesis of the piece dates back to April 2015. During that month, I cleared out my one-bedroom apartment and turned it into a black box theater and performed the first version of this piece every Thursday–Sunday night for 3 weeks. I invited friends, theater folk, industry people…little did I know I’d fill my little apartment every night with people sitting on the kitchen counters and the arms of chairs—all it took was a live pianist, some candles, flashlights and a few props and voila! It didn’t hurt that I plied my guests with champagne and some really good finger foods, but they came and this thing grew. Those first incubated, little baby breaths this show took led to the continued development of this piece; led to the gorgeous female form it has taken today.
And so, from all the way over THERE, to HERE and NOW, I am moving forward with my incredible director/choreographer/collaborator, Ms. Allison Plamondon, to create this beautiful theatrical original one-woman show.
Can't wait to share it with you.