I love this quote by Edward Albee. I have circled back to this quote again and again as I have moved through this process of writing and producing this theatrical piece. The quote relates not only to my work and the process of creating it, but related to the content of the show as well. The quote inspired me and provided a platform for me to discuss the multiple iterations of the piece. It’s become a guiding mantra about how going so far over there was necessary to get here.
What I’ve learned throughout my life and in this process is that you must go "through it" to know how to get to the place and space you want to be, deserve to be. Sometimes life just “takes us.” Sometimes we end up standing in a very different place than we ever imagined or intended. Sometimes we get lucky and things work out. Sometimes they don’t. Sometimes just a spark of a thought or subtle action can take us to spaces and places we never thought possible. And sometimes the worst of times points us toward what becomes the best of times.
My big obstacles have been fear and shame. Where does that come from and how is it that fear and shame shape our choices and ultimately our lives? How is it that we set our sights on X and then something or someone causes us to go way the hell over there…away from our dreams and away from who we are? Getting at the roots of fear and shame (and this show does just that) allows us to identify or recognize who or what it was that quelled the voice within that said, “Yes, you can!" and kick that demon to the curb.